REST IN PEACE

on 30/1 that day,6 am, i was informed that my stepmom passed away at hospital...at first i can't believe it b'coz it was so shock...i thought that it was a dream until i called my dad 2 confirm d news...it is d 1st time that i've lost some1 who is close 2 me...since i was at my kampung that time, i've went 2 cbu jaya that noon 2 c her 4  d last time...only when i arrive at the house i started 2 cry..all relative r already coming...there r people who is crying...all i can do is sit next 2 her body n juz cry...eventhough she is my stepmom, i've live with her since i'm in kindergarden till i finish my form 5...

she was only 61 years old...i still thought that it is too early 4 her 2 leave dis world...i've 2 admitt that i owez take granted of her when she still alive...now, i regret that i never showed that i luv her...never told her that i do luv her like my biological mother...it is also regretful also since she didn't have any chance 2 c me finish my degree...i didn't get d chance 2 give her my salry if i get a job...i also had a wish that i will take her 2 traveling 2 somewhere if there is a chance...now, it juz a dream never come true... it's had past 1 month after she gone,n i  miss her so much aite now..i think i've cried so much on that day, i guess i will save my tears 4 sumone or sumthings really importants in d future... but i was fortunate that i've been blessed with both my stepmom n my biological mother love till i'm 22 years old..since my biological mom is still alive, i will embrace her...4 what i'm doing aite now, i owez think of her 1st...i'll cherish all d moment with her..i'll try my bez 2 become a gud daughter 2 her...

dear mom, i luv u..
n sorry 4 not being a gud daughter 4 u in ur lifetime...
i will owez luv n miss u...
i noe u will be watching me up there..
R.I.P

Somebody Else...

Whose possesion have u become

u could have at least told me

coincidently, i saw u 2 at d pace where we use 2 be

all of sudden, we become adult

i noticed pace that we set out on different path

 not me, somebody else

 eventhough i loved 2 for so long

 eventhough we're closer than anyone

 it was'n me

 somebody else

 u choose her

 eventhough i'll make u happy

d only things i could do is looking

if i hold u, i will break it

so i'm waiting

d sadness doesn't end

nobody know my feeling

i feel like i'll become messed up

if it was possible

i would want 2 tell u everything right away

d fact that u won't come back anymore

now, i'll embrace our memory

 i'm juz ur somebody else

 juz a friend

 u seem happy

 if i could protect u with a smile

i would be happy with jus that...

nganglak kao..;)

bam rata tatatatatt...
~7~
nolza..!!!!


                                               

Food maniac....

since i've been got ulcer 4 d past 3 day...
it's so hard 2 mkn dowh...
minum air pn payah..omg...
tmbah lg ngan headache yg sgt skit..
i think that d worst headache i've ever had...
but thank God everything is ok now..ulcer pn smkin ok..
dh bley mkn nasi dh skang..huhuhu...;)
moral of d story, minum air byak klo xnk kna ulcer...

                                            sup cendawan..sedap dowh...ni lh mknan ruji time ulcer..huhu..
                                    klo mkn ngan bread pn sedap gak..western la plak..;p

            

bubur nasi perisa udang...juz bought dis yesterday...slalu dengar mee sgera kn,

bubur segera pn ade skang..huhu...juz had dis 4 lunch td..

ni mkanan 4 dinner td...since ulcer pn dh smkin smbuh, kta mkn sepuas-puasnya...

3 ari kot asyk mkn sup n bubur je..satay ayam..bli kt psar mlm sek 7 ngan faezah ptg td..

side dish 4 2nite dinner..pau ayam...besar kot..n murah r jgak..ni pn bli kt

psar mlm sek 7..2nite dinner was daebak!!!

                                     erkk..ni mkanan last week..prosperity burger..i'm lovin it...

bdw, yesterday mkn kimbab n bubur..thanks 2 jen, ikka, n ann...eheheh..yesterday totally jjang!!!...;p
i was so cerewet klo bab mknan...
even nk mkn kt kdai pn, kna cri kdai yg ada jual what i want 2 eat..
but now, i can eat anything..everywhere...as long as it call FOOD..!!
i thing 4 sure, still x bley mkn bawang lg..huhuhu...;p
lastly, mkan utk hidup, not hidup utk mkan...hahaah..;p

bam ratata tatatata...

it's 2012...!!!

it's 2012 sudah...
cepatnya msa berlalu kn..huhuhu
taun baru..azam baru..boipren baru..tet..
everything baru..
since this is new year..everyone nk buat azam bru r..
nk jd single r..nk cri boifren/gurlfren r..
what kind of azam is that..
but, depend ngan org 2 la yek..
jnji ko heppy...
but 4 me..juz realize that since laz year, i didn't have azam bru
omg..so this year??
ehhmm...i think...
i'll juz go with d flow...ahhahh
i want to become a better person...
a better daughter 2 my parent....
doesn't mean that i was a bad person la kn..
a bit la kot..tet..
but, 1 thing 4 sure..i am still me..
hopely la kn...hahaah..

let's start fresh in this new year..

 vanish all d bad memory..

but never regret what had hapen...

create a new memory...

live a new life..

cherish every moments...

life change every moment

live every moment 2 d fullest

coz, this moment might not be there 2morrow...

face this life with smile....spread d love..peace...

Kao Jirayu,

this year..i wish i can keep u in my heart 4 a long time...;p

bam rata tatata...

nolza....!!!





sorry for....

for all of d time that i've tried for ur smile
for making u think that i was worth d while
so ur luv will be mine
for sending ur flower & holding ur hand
that no one was there 2 take a stand
but then luv made us blind
 sorry that i loved u
 sorry that i fell through
 sorry i was falling in luv with u
i'm sorry that it come true
but sorry doesn't turn back time
for all that i have done 2 u
i wish that i could make it right
so sorry that loved u
sorry that i needed u
sorry that i held u tight
i'm so sorry for
making u luv me & saying gudbye
for being d one that taught u how to cry
it was luv & it passed us by
for giving u everything that u dreamed
for taking it back when i fled d scene
sorry luv for wasting ur time
an apology now after all of this time
won't make any difference 2nite
but i'm hoping i'm sorry will open ur mine
2 luv in ur life
sorry that i luv u
sorry that i hurt u....

Anthony N.
wo xihuan ni...
bam ratata tatatatata
nolza!!!!

Bam ratatata tatatata...

Bam ratattata...
oh my god....
i week b4 study week..but dun think that this study week will bcome study week..it will bcome assigment week..klaz ganti week....ok..thankz 2 ol d lectures...no matter what hapen, appreciate all d knowledge....huhuhu...this week will bcome a very stressful week...hectic week...chaos week...cepat2 r abes sem ni kn...bdan pn dh lemah dh ni...it would be nice if my mom was here...ade jgak tmpat bmanja..ok enough with all d stress....juz bear with it with smile..aja aja fighting..chaiyok chaiyok...naega jeil jal laga...





dh nk abes sem..so this is d time where student from sabah n s'wak sibuk nk bli tiket belon...some will ready 4 final, n some will sibuk cri tiket flite yg murah..sibuk lh sgt kn..klo lmbat bli, d price may become very expensive..silap2 harga tiket biasa bley sma ngan business class...haa..cmna 2...but 4 sure..no matter what d price of d tiket, i will be back home...hahahah..1 lg masalah...cmne nk smpan barang ni...klo smpan kt kolej..kompom r bayar..pastu ckap kolej x bertanggungjawab if anything hapen 2 d barang yg disimpan dlam stor...klo x dibayar, xpe r jgak ckp cm2 kn..huh..nmpak sgt nk duet plajar..igt suma student kaya ke....huhuhu...dh la my sis nk pndah ujung bulan ni, nk x nk kna simpan kt stor kolej r brg2...huhuh..nk bwk blik s'wak, cm immposible la jgak..lain lh klo dh abes study kn...nk mntak tolng cousin kt cni, cm malu la plak..ahhahah...it would b nice if my sis x jd pndah...but, ng sik apat...huhuu..;p





it december suda...it's cristmas...feliz vavidad...since this cristmas fall on study week, kta enjoy...enjoy la sgt kn..haahhah...sepatutnye dh cti time ni..spe la yg ubah jadual sem sma ngan luar ngara pnye intake..dieowg xpe r..ade 4 seasons, kta????pnas ngan ujan je la yg ade...huhuhu...bpe taun dh x smbut new year ngan family kt kmpung..talk about new year celebration,  mknan yg wajib kna ada 4 me is ayam kukus...bkn mkn bnyak pn, juz d drumstik ayam 2 je yg mkn...ahahahah..dh tradisi kot...eheheh..tp kt cni pn, hmpir tiap ari belauk kn drumstik ayam...tiap ari jgak la amik steroid...hahaahh..omg...

no matter what life may become..juz face it..smile..;)

NOLZA...!!!!



                                                



problems..stress...%$^$&%*~

december suda...1 more months, there will be final exam..this sem seem like everything is out of control...assigment...medical cover...fitness test..outdoor xtvt....yg fitness test ni lh yg agak lemah ni..huhuhu....nma je amik course sport, tp..i have 2 admit that i'm not really involve in sport..ntah r cmna bley msuk sport science ni...huhuhuhu...sib r ade science kt blakang 2..hahaahh...but, overall,this courses quite a fun n gud la jgak...erk..ni bkn nk cter psal course r...omg...

w/pun sem da nk abes, there is so many thing to do...assgments..presentation...hmmm...blum lg test..kuiz...retest..x sabar nk abes sem ni..penat sungguh dowh..klaz start dr pg smpei mlam..bla la education system kt m'sia ni nk btuka..huhuhu...mkn pn x menentu..tido pn mostly kurang dari 6 jam...tp,yg peliknya,w/pun mkan x menentu n sumtime x mkn, brat bdan still jgak naek..ha..cmna 2...e2 yg kta nk tau 2...;p

ni 1 lg problem time nk buat grup assgment....klo ade pilihan mmg xnk r buat assgment grup ni...tp, since kta hidup kt dunia ni, mne bley hdup sorang2 kn...time keja nnti, mne bley keja sorg kn..bak motto liverpool 'never walk alone'..bdw,i'm not liverpool fan...heeheh...yg mnjadi mslah nya, klo dpt grup member yg mcm shit...ego tingi...selfish je lebih...hipokrit..x profesional...huh...nk kna jga perasaan dia je..what d fish r..!!

but, sumtime i do care..huhhuu...

stress..stress...normal r klo kta stress kn..yg x penah stress 2 lh yg x normal 2...ehehh...as a student, mmg r stress kn..stress ngan persekitaran kt cni..nal jeongmal michigoseo....

no matter what happen..let's jom  NOLZA!!!

bam ratatata..